Lack of committment

I don't think I'm a commitmentphobe. Honestly I don't. But I do find it strange that;

a/ When I last spoke to Mr Small Biz we loosely agreed to catch up today. I didn't hear from him. More to the point I was relieved. I just wasn't feeling in the mood. OK, I admit I've had far too much fun and not enough sleep this weekend. Good clean fun I promise!
b/ I didn't contact the Fin to set up our trip to the golf range.....despite the fact I have previously raved about him for the whole world to see.
c/ At breakfast this morning the subject of The Husband Hunt came up. There was much encouragement re the plan of attack and goals. And I had to admit I hadn't done much of setting out to achieving them. I mean, what blind date?!

Perhaps the real issue is there are now 5 more sleeps until I leave on a soiree to Bali. And right now whilst husband hunting is of vital importance, I seem to have other things on my mind. Such as possibly meeting Mr Vision in Bali.

Don't worry, I'm so not giving up! I'm just standing on the outside looking in. And I am not impressed. I mean if I was my boss right now I might be giving myself a written warning or something.

Never fear, it's not a disaster. I'm just coming to the conclusion that my current prospects may well have nothing to do with my future. Which isn't a bad thing after all, as I said from the start, why settle for less than Mr Vision?

To my loyal readers K, P and S, I think you might just be right ;).

Woooooooooooohooooooooooooooooo 5 sleeps!!

xxxoooxxx